Wednesday, October 15, 2008


Outnumbered
I know it's been awhile, and I apologize. Truth is, I don't have anything good to blog about and really can't deal with criticism right now. Does that make me weak? Probably.

I feel like I'm a small army fighting several different armies...at the same time.

And I'm vastly outnumbered.

If I were just fighting the battle of weight and normal "everyday" stresses, then I would have absolutely no reason to be complaining. I'd be expected to just suck it up and shutup. I'm a strong army and I usually win the single battles. But I'm fighting so many battles right now that I can't justify spending my time and energy on weight loss.

I'm going to try, though.

I'm going to take small steps. Eat better, though not perfect. Devote half an hour each day to exercise. Be more active in general.

I've slipped. I can see it every time I look in the mirror. I can feel it every time I get dressed. And it depresses the crap out of me.

Anyway, I don't know how often I'm going to be able to blog. And I feel horrible because I haven't had time (nor will I be able to spend the time I'd like) to visit everyone's blogs. I'll try, though.

Ok, enough blogging, more exercising.

2 Comments:

Blogger susie said...

Glad to see you back Beck! you can do this!

I don't know if this is your problem or not but it is certainly mine... I so have this all or nothing mentality. So if I don't have time for a full workout I just don't workout at all... My thin friends use any spare time to workout even if it's only 10min. I used to think they were crazy but I think now I'm going to try and be more like them.

1:32 PM  
Blogger Beck said...

I'm totally like that! Or if I eat one bad thing, I feel like my entire day is ruined so why try.

I know in my brain it's a step-by-step, decision-by-decision thing.

I dunno. Part of the solution is breaking free of the extreme mentality. Another huge part is establishing some semblance of normalcy in my life.

On a positive note, I started my day out with a 20-min jog and a 10 min walk.

5:53 PM  

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