Another Day, Another Horse
I'd say that I've fallen off the horse - again - but truth be told, I kicked my horse in the shins until it couldn't walk anymore, then called it ugly.
I have no clue what that means. It's nearly 1 in the morning, I'm waiting for a freaking shopping cart to upload so I can pull my hair out trying to figure yet another one out for a picky client who wants the impossible. Sue me.
What I'm basically saying is, I've fallen off the horse again. This time, I've fallen into the trap of eating little to nothing during the day while I'm trying to juggle overwhelming projects and two deviants whose only purpose in life is to see who can make me lose my patience first. It's fun, let me tell ya. Then at night, I get ravenously snacky and dive head-first into anything sugary or salty. To top it off, I'm drinking hardly anything (unless it's at least 80 proof).
Before you guys (and girls) rip into me, I know I screwed up. I know that what I'm doing is detrimental to weight loss and, at the very least, horribly unhealthy. I know all that. My challenge is to create a time and place for everything. And not just eating right and exercising. I'm talking about my entire life at the moment. Right now, I'm just letting stuff happen and am neglecting important things like my family and my health. I have no focus, no patience and no will-power and it's got to stop.
For clarification, I'm not laying out excuses. I'm simply laying out my chaotic life as it sits now and making it known that I've got a heck of a mess that needs to be cleaned up.
I'm going to start with making a schedule. I'll follow that up with prioritizing the items (and people) within that schedule and taking care of each appropriately. I've let myself become lazy and unfocused. It's time to grab this beast of a situation by the horns and steer it in the direction I want (and need) it to go.
Let it be noted that regardless of the image I used to portray my overall health awareness, I despise rodeos, big hats, big belt buckles, country music and, in most cases, cowboys. No offense.
posted by Beck at
9:55 PM
9 Comments:
As much as it sucks that you have fallen off the horse, the fact that you want to get back up on it is what is really important. People can say you're just talking the talk or whatever they want, but as long as you know that you're trying to get back up on the horse is all that really matter...
Also, your blogs crack me up. You have a really good sense of humor, and I've always enjoyed reading your blogs, funny stuff.
Ive been there so many times Beck, so I know how you feel. Stress seems to be my worst enemy. Sounds like making a schedule is a great start of plan for you. When I see it in my face that Ive scheduled in time for a certain activity, 9 times out of 10, it gets done vs when I have no schedule at all.
Keep you head up!
You just gotta keep picking yourself up everytime and try and learn from it.
Fact is that unless you come up with a gameplan for eating right and everything else in a way that works with your crazy life, you'll just repeat the pattern of mental stress and little progress on the weight front.
I'm right there with you - I have to plan to eat well, if I don't, I eat a burger, fries, chips, and black bean dip for dinner at 10:00pm and see my weight jump four pounds overnight. This happened to me on Monday, and I'm still fighting to get back down to where I was a week ago.
Keep it up, Beck, you can do this.
I have to agree with Will... you have to put some structure around the insanity and stress. Its a vicious circular path Beck... Luckily you own your future so do with it what you want.
planning seems to be everything. I have the same problem of getting overwhelmed with everything else and putting all my personal goals on hold. I think if i could just stay on top of everything else and not get behind I'll eventually have time for the personal stuff too. but now I think I'm just going to have to try and make time for it all and plan really well. I also might take this time management course at my church next month.... good luck with the schedule! let us know if you figure out a good way to balance.
funny post by the way...
hows it going beck??? been along time since your last post. Are you on board with the 100 day challenge with your man?
Sure am. I've been swamped. While I'm still trying to make time for exercise, my eating has been right on.
Thanks for keeping me in check. :)
Beck how are you doing? Its been awhile so I figured I'd check in on ya. Hope youre keeping your head up! Take care.
almost been a month Beck... blog it up!!!
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