Thursday, August 21, 2008


Busy as a Bee!
Quick hits tonight. I'm insanely busy, which leaves no time to blog. Ugh.

- Moved cheat meal up to tonight. Had Chinese buffet and felt horrible eating it the entire time. Not looking forward to tomorrow's weigh-in.

- I know I'm in the weight-loss mindset because I can't wait to keep tomorrow's eating clean and feel good again. I feel like crap right now!

- I got in 50 pushups and 100 situps tonight. I'll add squats, lunges and triceps extensions to my cardio tomorrow.

- I'm thankful for the paying work, but I've got no time! I just wish I could find a happy medium. But again, I'm grateful. I'd much rather be busy and taken care of than out of work with no money.

9 Comments:

Blogger billy said...

Why have a cheat meal if you don't really need it? And why go to a buffet?? Why not go out to a chinese restaurant and just order something? I guarantee it'll taste just as good and you'll probably limit the damage.

6:22 AM  
Blogger Beck said...

Because it's my cheat meal and I enjoy the variety a buffet presents. I've been freaking awesome for a week and a half and have lost nearly six pounds, so I feel like I'm entitled to a cheat meal of my choice. A cheat meal that Kevin and I have been talking about for a week now.

With all due respect, what I choose to eat for my cheat meal is up to me and I don't feel like I should be reprimanded for it. It's one thing if I'm cheating day after day like before. If that's the case, then tell me I'm wrong. But when I move a planned cheat meal up one day and look forward to getting back to the renewed habit of clean eating, focus on that.

I failed to mention that I had nothing but a cup of cantaloupe prior to eating, which was a huge factor in choosing to move the meal up.

6:49 AM  
Blogger susie said...

It's great that you're so anxious to get back to eating right after your cheat meal! I feel that way too when I eat a cheat meal. I always feel a little bad about it when I'm eating it. But for me I think this is a good thing. It's helping me realize that whatever it is I'm eating in my cheat meal is not really as enjoyable as I imagined and that I could live life without it.

But I'm always glad I have a cheat meal to look forward to. The pressure of trying to eat clean 100% of the time would drive me to binge eat. My cheat meal this weekend? Pizza sat night. yum :)

7:42 AM  
Blogger Brandon said...

I have no problems with cheat meals but what about moderation? As for choices, you have plenty of choices. You can eat whatever you want at anytime and any amount. We've all done that before and it doesn't work.

As for Billy "reprimanding" you, I don't see it. He asked valid questions which are ment to get YOU thinking about what will help YOU best reach your goals. You really should take some time and ask those questions to yourself.

We read your blog because we want to encourage you to succeed. We want to see you reach your goals. We want you to feel good about the hard work and help you through the hard choices you may have to make.

I'm sorry but what I see right now is that you're setting yourself up for failure. I feel like I'm being the bad guy for saying it but again, I want you to succeed. So, I'll be the bad guy.

8:38 AM  
Blogger Beck said...

But I'm not setting myself up for failure. If my eating at a buffet or eating a cheat meal at all set off some sort of binge mechanism that launched me into bad habits thereafter, then I would agree 1,000% with both you and Billy. The thing is (and this is why I mentioned it), I felt guilty eating the cheat meal, which is something I haven't felt in about six months now. That's how I know the cheat meal isn't setting myself up to fail.

Like Susie said (and I'm sure most, if not all would agree), I need a cheat meal to look forward to. There's just something about it - whatever the cheat meal might be - that makes it easier to eat clean the rest of the time.

Also, Kevin and I have decided that cheat meals are going to happen maybe once every three weeks, likely every four. And they will be just that - a cheat meal...not a cheat day. That alone limits the damage.

I can understand the concern, especially noting my recent history. Shoot, I've only been back at it for only two weeks - I don't have a lot of credibility. And Billy, I do appreciate the feedback. I really do.

That said, I personally know that I'm back mentally. I'm done making excuses and letting circumstances control my weight.

Each person has their preferences for cheat meals, and because people do it differently doesn't necessarily make one or the other wrong. I personally wouldn't go out drinking and eating late at night because that leads to my making bad decisions. But that's me. If it's detrimental in the big picture, then sure, it's wrong because it's hindering weight loss. But I think that if I want to eat at a buffet once in a great while and I'm still hitting my goals, then it's fine.

All I'm saying is, if it ain't broke, don't fix it.

10:54 AM  
Blogger KevinA76 said...

Good grief, Becky.

You had one bad meal out of your last 34 or so. Your eating is now only at 97% clean, and you're active every day of the week.

You've only lost what, 9 pounds in the last 11 days?

You should be much more robotic. Only eat specific foods at specific times on specific days, and never, ever deviate. That's the only way you can be successful.

/sarcasm

Beck, you (WE) are doing great. We're making strides, our focus is fantastic, and we had one planned cheat meal - during which we practiced self-control and moderation. Once every three weeks? We should be ashamed.

Focus on the support people are giving you, and the kudos you're working your butt off to deserve. And keep moving forward.

12:52 PM  
Blogger billy said...

I wasn't reprimanding anyone. Like Brandon said, I was just offering a different perspective.

If you don't want to hear what I have to say anymore that's fine, I won't comment. But we're here to support each other and very often it involves offering up suggestions for ways to do even better.

I dunno Beck, you and Kevin both have a history of gaining weight back and I want to help you get back on track that's all. I just feel like if you did a search for the phrase "Chinese Buffet" on your blog it would come up with a lot of hits, and something just ain't right about that.

Not to mention that your overly-defensive posture leads me to suspect that maybe you do feel bad about it for some reason.

Anyway, I didn't mean for you to take it as me admonishing you. Sorry if it came off that way.

2:25 PM  
Blogger Brandon said...

Thank-you for clarifying. Now that you've elaborated a bit I can see where you're coming from. I'm still a bit confused about the guilty feeling you've expressed, is that normal?

You shouldn't be ashamed of your eating but you are. Shouldn't that cause you to question your motivation? Why a buffet? Do I NEED this cheat meal? Am I undoing all the hard work and pushing my goals further away? Should I be trying harder?

You should also realize that people that push you help you more than those who just praise you. You don't need a pat on the back. You need encouragement, motivation, and a reminder to stay vigilant.

2:42 PM  
Blogger Beck said...

Billy, you tend to limit your comments to the posts that expose what you feel is bad behavior. I don't want you to stop commenting. However, if you commented on both the good and bad, then I wouldn't have as big of an issue with your comment today. It just gets frustrating to not hear anything from you unless you're pointing out errors.

Besides, I've got a lot going on right now, so my "overly-defensive posture" isn't strictly about the blog. If I took anything out on you or anyone else, I apologize.

Brandon, I don't feel ashamed, I feel guilty. There's a big difference in my mind. I was ashamed when I was eating at buffets once a week, and taking absolutely no control of my actions. Guilt is a result of constantly working hard to lose weight and knowing that the cheat meal you're eating is what has the potential of making you fat if not eaten in moderation.

I work hard all week to eat perfect, and it's drilled into my brain that junk food is bad. So when I indulge on junk food in a planned cheat meal, I feel bad about doing it. I enjoy the food. It's good! But I do look forward to getting back to healthy foods.

That's a good thing, though. Like I said, I haven't felt this in over six months. That feeling is evidence that my mind is where it needs to be for weight loss.

The bottom line is this: I've got two more weeks to lose about five pounds. I have no doubt I can do it despite my cheat meal. I'm not going to have another one until well after my goal date of 9/8. I'm going to hit 180 by eating clean at least 90% of the time and exercising six days a week. When I hit 180, there's no looking back. I'm going to aim for 170. And so on until I reach my ultimate goal weight. I'm back and I'm not letting any of this derail my motivation or success.

9:55 PM  

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